Hi I’m Ej Brosas, 18 years old. I’ve been serving the Lord for two years now and I want to share my story. I wasn’t a believer before and I admit that I was a worldly person, alcohol and cigarettes were the worldly things that I can mention.
I love my family but I didn’t feel any love from them and I always had thoughts in my mind that no one really loved me. I was always by myself even though I needed someone to lean on with my problems in school or in my life. There was no one, not even friends.
No one knew how hard my situation was. Even the thought of getting an award for any activity in school there would be no one to support me. Seeing your other classmates having a parents supporting them made me feel jealous and made me think “how does it feel to have a parents caring for you?” I never experienced it.
I always wanted to experience having a parent who is always there for me during my failures and my happiness. Because of my longing for my parents’ affection and love I didn’t know where to go. I was lost and I had no one to count on, not even my relatives.
“I almost took my life”
I became paranoid and depressed up to the point that I almost took my life. I was even banging my head on the wall. I destroyed all the things around me and decided to cut my wrist as a way out of my insanity. It was the only way I could see at that time. There was a lot of blood, but good thing that I managed to survive and I was just crying the whole time. I decided to throw away the knife that was in my hand.
At that point, I didn’t knew that there was a God and I’ve never even thought to turn to Him with the things that happened to me, only to blame my parents.
“My child, I love you”
Then one day, someone invited me to a church and everything was new to me. Especially the people who were so nice to me and I was wondering “why are they so happy and why are they crying too?”. That very moment was the time that I learned about the Lord. He was telling me that time “My child, just cry it out, let it out!”. I was crying so much, letting everything out until I felt His presence. “My child, I love you”. Those were the words that keeps repeating in my mind.
I thought to myself that FINALLY someone called me SON! It was joy that I felt from the feeling of being called son. I came to realization that it was God who is my real parent is and the answer to everything. He was the one who healed the wounds and the missing piece that completed me and changed my life.
I’ve seen the importance of the cross on Calvary that freed me. He gave His life for me and I am no longer forsaken or broken, because of the mercy and His grace. I was captivated by His love that continuously is changing me. God is teaching me in terms of praying and going to church enlightens me about the importance of my life.
“my relationship to my family is in the process of restoration”
I believe that because of the Lord, my relationship to my family is in the process of restoration. God made me understand about the things that happened to me, that it had a purpose especially regarding about my parents.
I’m continuously praying for them because I believe on the power of prayer. The day will come when they will feel the love of the Lord too. I thank the Lord for His love and I promise to myself that I will forever serve Him until the day He comes.
To all of us, let’s continue to pray for our parents that they will feel the love of the Lord in God’s time. Let us all remember that God loves us and will never leave us. God called us because we have a purpose and He will never fail to meet it. Trust in Him and and let us serve Him with all of our hearts. God bless!